Time for darkness.... (thread number 3)ears open

[james217]

Actually direct advice is what he needs so don't change your approach if you decide to continue commenting on his thread, I think direct is best with every user on these forums. Just an observation James but sometimes I don't think you're looking for real advice, just some sympathy and pity for how hard your situation is and granted your situation is tough, wallowing in self-pity isn't going to make it any better.

rob I expect that from you and pdt. I know that's your way. I just wanted to know why C.G. is so hard on me. yes I need the direct approach and bluntness. But I need a little compassion mixed in. Everyone does.

If I was wallowing I wouldn't be here. I wouldn't be trying to do anything to try to fix myself. I would'nt even go to the doctor or do the surgery or look for work.

I know I'm depressed. Especially after the dates and ML then her avoiding me about me being blunt and direct about SD8 and getting hurt.

I know I need to hear the truth too. The truth is I messed things up alot worse than before. I don't know if I can even fix it at this point. I want to text her and say I'm sorry for the lunch and for showing up at her place even though it was to bring a gift.

I dont know if she will ever love or trust me again. I know she has to show me too though. I don't know if she will put in the work to do so.

So yes I'm still afraid. This woman used to tell me our hearts beat in tune. How god send I was. etc etc. Nobody ever made me feel that way before. Now I feel totally on the other side of the spectrum

I just don't understand how she can be so lovey dovey then so full of hate the next minute.

I don't know how to fix this stuff so I'm just dark. maybe she won't ever talk to me again and doesn't care anymore. I don't know anymore