Well, I know it didn't go exactly as you had hoped, but like you said, at least it wasn't horrible either. I'm glad H made the effort to come over, take you out, and buy you a present/card. It's all kind of confusing and contradictory though. He's happy to be your H card and an I Love you figurine??? It would be cute and sweet in any other circumstance, but if that's how he feels, then why can't he live it out? Like you said, he doesn't know what he wants with you, but wants to have a "family", but just not enough to sacrifice for it. That's where I feel my H too and it's frustrating! It puts us in the middle of their indecision and their crazy emotions and it's just not fair to us. If you feel you can get thru to him by writing an email (or if it will help you get some of these things off your chest) then by all means, definitely write him the email. If he hasn't already figured it out, you love him and want him to be apart of a family with you but like you were telling me, it's works both ways, and that involves showing love and some sacrifice on both sides. It's just hard because the question just seems so simple - do you or do you not want to be with me? Somehow, this question still ends up being so complicated and convoluted! But at least you've been doing your share of being open and honest with him. He is and continues to push you away and I hope his therapy (or you) can get thru to him in time before he is completely closed out of your heart or a D is filed. You have a great attitude for life though, so just keep it up!
Me 27; H 28; S 2 Togeth 9; M 4 Sep 11/14/08 EA OW1 Sep 08 EA OW2 Mar 09 EA OW3 Jun 10
