I'm having a tough day. Just sent a text msg to her saying:
"I am visiting solicitor tomorrow. Do you have any intention of paying the money owed for renovations on your rental property, and if so, when will this happen."
Some of this may be the 'end of set of night shifts' induced emotional and physical mess (think jet lag multiplied a few times) making me feel worse, but I'm getting increasingly fed up with it all. I don't feel much emotion for her anymore. Mostly disgust, with the occasional abject rage, but that is fleeting now. She doesn't reply to my weekly email which states similar to the txt above and includes a breakdown of the items and tradesmens bills which I paid, nothing else.
I think I am extremely close to walking away forever. How much of my life can I afford to spend trying to fix a marriage that only lasted 6 months and in which the other party clearly has no interest as she was bedding my colleague within a matter of days (if not before). I hear loud and clear from her surrogate Mum how unhappy and awful she looks, but she's still busy going on holiday and professing her love for the OM.
Is there any point in contesting divorce? I can't do anything except disagree with it, which merely means we wait 5 yrs for the eventual end rather than just 2.
I feel like whatever I do now is just playing into her hands and reinforcing for her that she was right all along. She has no consequences to face except the aforementioned money. I walk away, she feels vindicated and can get on with her life with OM, divorce proceeding asap to make it easier. And it will be very easy as it currently stands, I merely have to sign papers on our anniversary and then wait 2 yrs and it's all over. I try and impede the divorce, she just gets to moan about how 'difficult' and 'unreasonable' I'm being when she wants it all to be AMICABLE!
Mostly I just think I want my money to ease my financial difficulty at the moment and then forget about her forever and get on with finding someone honest, faithful and worthy of wearing my wedding ring.
Reality is that which, if you don't believe in it, doesn't go away.
