I am trying to acknowledge positives as baby steps so I can stay motivated. I think "If she is trying to co-exist with me and counting down the days why would she be generous, considerate or even care what I think about things? why would I even matter to her anymore?" or am I just reaching for positives?
Nothing wrong with reaching for positives, yes, that's what counting babysteps is all about... it will help you keep your PMA