I was convinced that i wanted the divorce during part of the process but i felt that if we were to be together again that we should indeed get the divorce (and she wouldn't agree to try work things out even if i asked her). I haven´t talked to her about how i felt as that would put her on the defensive and would not accomplish anything right now. I have read DB and DR.

I know she will play head games but that a risk i have to take.