Need a Plan for My Marriage

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Today had been a rollercoaster of a ride for me. I did my type of GALing today and spent time just me and D. It was great for us. Went to the library, and she checked out some books, and I tried to find some books on infidelity, but there were none because the library is small near me. I bought a 2 liter Dr Pepper, and me and daughter finished it in an hour just because. Wife hates soda, so I just did it for fun, and we laughed and enjoyed the time together. I know it is not healthy, but it just felt good to do something for me. W called and for the first time I did not answer the phone. I am sure it pissed her off because I did call her to ask why she spent all the grocery money that I had planned to use for next two weeks.

I start the Census job soon, and I planned to get caught up a little, and buy my son a bike early for his birthday. I am having a friend that will watch the kids for not very much money. It just irritated me that she would do this when I told her how much we had. Then she asked the kids what they wanted for dinner and did not even bother to ask. She is a real class act these day. I always make sure she has dinner ready for her to warm up when she comes home.

I am glad to have a job even if it is temporary. I found another job part-time probably when the Census job is over. I am also waiting for an answer from a full-time position that interviewed for a couple of weeks ago. I talked to the corporate recruiter, and they are still interviewing, so I have a chance. I have applied for so many other jobs too.

I feel that I have let go more to where I really worry more about me and the kids than her.

All she did was stay in the bedroom by herself all night while I watched a movie with the kiddies. It was a lot of fun to spend quality time together. I sure do love my kids!!! They are so sweet!

I have my ups and downs, but more ups than downs these days.

I am curious how does a person know if the affair is over? How does a person know if there is withdrawl? Just curious!