Just tried to edit my lengthy rant but couldn't.....so here is the rest below.

And, yes, FM- an in house seperation made my work a thousand times easier. I can tell this- I didn't see him reconciling, but towards the end it didn't matter to me b/c I had given my good faith effort and was eventually going to seek the D if his stance continued b/c I deserved to not live like that. I let him know this too- I love him, I want to be with him but I will eventually (when I had money and a better job) seek a D b/c I do not need to live with a person who can not stand me and knows he is hurting me emotionally.

I didn't realize he was paying such close attention to my changes as he was....I didn't know he was even reconsidering me. At this point I thought the moments where we were feeling closer again just didn't matter enough to him....I guess they did.

Last edited by june72; 04/18/10 05:42 AM.

M38, H37
S3, S7
Together 15 yrs
Married 8 yrs
Bomb July 2008
Inhouse separation
"I hate you" "We are over" (too many times to count)
Reconciled Sept 2009 (still worth it)