thanks for checking in. i'm actually doing fairly good still. i so far have not plummeted again and keep feeling more and more ease. i had been asking God for clarity, patience and strength and i feel like it's coming now. not in the way i imagined (i wanted to figure out if i should get divorced or not)...but the clarity is coming in the sense that i understand what my H is going through. i actually feel sorry for him b/c i realize he is likely hurting more than i am, deep down inside. at least i know that i will be ok and move on no matter what happens.
still a sucky situation...and i know you are feeling it too since you're in the middle of one yourself! it is most sad to see the one you love be so "lost."
the detachment piece has been most helpful b/c i just really realize that 1) it's not in my control 2) i can't fix it 3) it's his issue to deal with 4) it's really not about me at all. i am coming to a much better sense of self b/c i'm not so bad after all.
btw, started reading a new earth by eckhart tolle...not sure if anyone else has. it's not related to this per se but is about letting go of the "ego". i also need to pick up several of the books everyone recommended since my holds at the library just came through.
Me 30, H34, M7years Bomb dropped 5/09, S8/09, Living together 2/10 (due to external forces)
