still separated, in limbo, still hopeful

[newmama]

I started washing the deck- am 2/3rds done. I wanted to use the shop vac to suck up some pine needles in tight spaces, so I hauled it over to the deck and then had to find a way to plug it into an extension cord...but I did. THEN I turned on the shop vac but it was blowing air out! I looked all over for a switch to make it suck...I tried going online to look up how to use the vac but my internet was down! So I called my one male friend who lives across the country to help me out and he explained that there are two "holes" for the hose to attach to and I needed to switch holes. I WOULD HAVE NEVER EVER GUESSED THAT!

So WH dropped off S and noticed I had started to clean the deck and gave me a suggestion for getting the pollen off. He said "we" a couple times. I was feeling pissed off at him and didnt want to look at him.Luckily he was only there for 15 minutes- he had asked me if S and I needed to get packed up to go somewhere.


Anyway I am feeling kind of down today trying to figure out what I want to do. And overwhelmed by dating. I wish they had a single moms meet up. I could use a friend who lives nearby (I have fabulous friends from college that I love but live 1-2hours away and they have their own happily married families to deal with!)