Fast track to her divorcing me

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Argh! I am so pissed off at myself.

In a moment of weakness last night I called her to talk about some misc stuff and then I let it out. "I miss you".

She reminded me not to go there as it would not change how she felt about me (i.e. no feelings what so ever). I told her I could not help how I felt.

11 days of total darkness down the drain. I am such a freaking idiot! Pounding myself with 2x4 now.

Just turning 48 and being alone and lonely will make you do stupid things.