I do like to be in control, but it is now in my face that I have lost control. I am working to get it back, but in a new way. This site has shown me how very in control I can be of ME and how I cannot be in control of H. I have been overbearing, its easy to see in hindsight. In the moment it just feels like I am taking care of what needs to be done when H has withdrawn.
I have no problem admitting I have screwed up. Yes, I do desperately want to fix what is mine to fix.
I do accept your challenge and will post my feelings about hearing those dreaded words. I am low on time right now. I'll be back.
