New and Needing Advice (Long)

[Gnosis]

One more thing... if you go back on your word tomorrow or the next day and allow her back into the home without a word... you're screwed. A man's word is his bond. You break your word and she will lose more respect from you.

From this point forward you have zero trust... and she's going to have to work to regain that trust. That means she is going to have to earn it. The freer your give her that trust the less she values and appreciates it. You're going to have to be strong from this point forward.

You will need to go as dark as possible now and let her worry about what else you are going to do. You DO NOT tell her beforehand that you're going to file for D. You do not tell her anything about your life or what you are doing or how you are feeling. She lost those rights.

Right now you need to work on YOU and get your head straight.