Wow... a WAS that cheats and lies about it. I think you are the only person that has ever experienced that!
Again, no gratitude. Not one word. Sad.
You have set NO boundaries with your W and you will not even go dark for two days. Maybe you are right, a divorce is best.
The only 'work' you want to do is the 'fun stuff' like dating and spending the day in a hotel room. You either get your hands dirty, dive in and do the REAL work or you divorce. Make a choice or you will continue to self destruct.
Either way, you need to work on you. And I don't mean clothes, job, walking, sleeping and so on. It has to be much deeper or you life will never change.