I need help in the biggest way. I feel so helpless

[timehealsall]

Yeah, my family is here in my home state. Thank god. that's been such a big thing for me. It's given me hope in that I have a support system now.

H is leaving to go back overseas on Monday. stinks but he HAS to go. he has legal matters that need to be tended to and he has to be there. part of me can't wait for him to leave already.

every other time he has recently left to go back, he calls/emails me telling me he misses me and wants to chat online. everynight.

not sure if that'll be the case this time.. but we shall see..

I think we both need this space.