Just found out she already filed

[ImprovedRomeo]

CTH, wow. That's kinda how I feel too that my going dark has so far done nothing in fact pushed her to file for the D within weeks of moving out- much quicker than the last time when I begged and pleaded with her.

I almost want to talk to her about R stuff but don't even know how to begin or what to talk about. I feel like everything that's happened it's my fault, like I totally blew it. Even though I thought that things were going OK.

I know I'll have to go through the D this time no matter what but maybe there's a possibility of us being a couple and raising our DD together. Of course, I won't say that to her.