Bluestar, I hear you. I do. Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe someone can give me some opinions on whether they think it's MLC. I know this time feels VERY different to me. Here's what I'm basing this feeling on. Certainly, it's not like we can have blood drawn and see on a chart - yup, they are in MLC for sure, right smack dab in the middle, should be 1.7 years more before they're out of it.
-H has always tried to look young, but when 40 came around, he really started saying constantly "you're only as old as you act" and being VERY goofy with kids, fooling around, etc. -H is 43 now, and with the A that happened before, he was still attached to me, he wanted to be with me, etc. This time, he's staying as far away/dark from me as possible. -This time, EVERYTHING is my fault. I'm crazy, I drove him away, he NEVER loved me, he hasn't felt love for me for YEARS, he was acting, the love notes he left for me were him faking it -He says he cannot ever see himself trying again -He will never be able to love me again -She is his soul mate, they talk about everything, they understand each other, etc. They're going to get M as soon as the kids are grown -He's waiting to move on until the kids are older - using me to do this transition, I guess -He cares about me deeply but doesn't love me -He's going out drinking just about every single night -He's reconnected with many old high school friends -He's thinking of joining a bowling league -He's looking for a new car -He's looking for a motorcycle -He's learning how to handle his finances (mostly I think b/c he doesn't trust me to do it) -He's taking control of his life and his kids - for an hour or a day at a time, and then dropping the ball and leaving me to handle it all -OW is a high school crush, also going through a period it seems (or never got over) of reliving her youth -H is depressed - never seen this before (drinking is one symptom) -H constantly thinks of, talks about abandoning me to others, but never follows through -Nothing is his fault, it's all me, every single thing that's ever gone wrong with him is my fault and the only way to solve his problems is by getting AWAY from me. -He has constant mood swings - only seems "happy" when with OW (from pics I see) - but otherwise is a mess, depressed, etc. -Several times kids and friends have said to H "you're getting older, grow up" type of comments and you can LITERALLY cut the air with a knife after that. He DOES NOT appreciate ANY mention of his age AT ALL - VERY taboo subject. -H just lost 40 pounds and took up jogging (for one day LOL)
