LSG, I'm so sorry you find yourself here, but I'm glad you've been following and posted.
I know how you feel about giving up. One hour I'm done and the next I'm not. Everyone tells me when I'll know when I'm really done. My hope is now for my life, and fixing myself. If my H decides to join me later so be it, if not that is his loss. It has taken me the last 5 months to come to that conclusion. And I still have days where I want to contact him and beg and plead for him to return.
Hang in there and please feel free to highjack my forum anytime.
Together 16 years Married 12 years Me 36 H 34 D9 & S6 Separated 12/3/09 Confirmed A 1/25/10 Exposed A 1/26/10 H hired L, but not filed yet 1/27/10