Thanks for the words of encouragement. Last night I rummaged through the archives and found some of my older posts. I stayed for our D and not for my W. Please don't give me more credit than I deserve.
Hang tough and take it one day at a time. You will learn to do many things without your H. If I choose, now I can go to a movie and not feel awkward. I can take off on a vacation by myself and have fun doing it. I can got out to dinner and sit by myself and enjoy a good meal. People still look but if your confident, what you think is someone staring at you only becomes a quick glance.
When I think I can't do something without my W; I learn how to do it on my own. She's around b/c she's been watching me. What she doesn't see is someone complaining or crying about there stich. What she does see is someone who wants her in his life but doesn't need her to be in it. When this happens doors will open up. H will respect you more and want to be around you more.
