Whats that feel like? I think i remeber but let me see,
A into B? repeat if necessary.
Something like that right?
I know , all the women on the sight are saying something like "Poor Baby"
Never thought i would have to be a sex camel and boy are my arms tired. Too much info?
BITS M-46 W-42 M-16y T-19 y s10 s15 BombDec.19/09 Sep-F16/10 Sep Papers signed by W- June 30/10 Recon July 5/10 PA foundOut- Oct 30/10 Mental HospNov/10 moved out Nov/10 Leg Sep Mar 15/11
I put on a great new dress.. my long dark tresses are cooperating with me today and I feel empowered.
I used to feel like this all of the time.. up until 8 months ago when the power was stripped from me. I hope this feeling sticks with me through the weekend and until H leaves.
I didn't really talk much with him this morning. (he and the kids had to take me to the train station because the other car is in the shop). really just focused on my kids.. making funnies and stuff.. All I did was tell my kids each that I loved them and gave them each hugs and kisses and then asked H if I should put the call into S's school nurse (S came home early from school yesterday because he was feeling ill). he said yes and I thanked him for the ride and got out.
I feel so good. Hope no one ruins my mood.
For once in a long time, I feel like I will have a life with or without him and above all, I will be happy!
Yeah baby!!!
You sound good, T.H.A. And might I add, all of this is VERY attractive!
Puppy
Thank you! I feel soo frikkin good!
H has called me like 3 times already for stupid things..
"where is S's itouch?"
"what bills do we have to pay?"
and another call about a dumb call he got from a telemarketer.. like I give a crap?!?!
I hope you're keeping a journal thru all of this (or this forum can even serve as it). Because I hope you're noting the dynamic here, the "push/pull" and what your husband responds to.
I am journaling.. I'm doing so on my phone though because when I was writing in my book, he was actually reading it.
I need it in order to look back at it from time to time and reflect.
I find myself often falling into a rut and feeling hopeless and when I read back and realize that I AM in a better place than I was, it makes me feel better and more hopeful!
support from you all helps me in more ways than any of you will ever know, and for that, I thank you!
M: 32 H: 34 S:5 D: 3 D: 1 Together 11 years Married 7 Bomb: PA/EA 8/13/09 (for 1 year on and off) ILYBINILWY: 08/09
"The end of suffering happens with the end of wanting." -Laura Munson
It's easy to lose sight of how we were months ago, isn't it? We are still at one of the lowest points in our lives, but when we go back and look, we see that we are getting better. Slowly but surely, but better nonetheless.
You're right about it not feeling like ML. There's nothing wrong with wild monkey sex when both of you are into it and then you colapse on each others arms and are out of breath and tell each other how amazing it was. Then you fall asleep like that. the 8 or 10 times we have done it since post bomb, it has simply been f!@#$ng. Leaves you feeling kind of empty, doesn't it/
She will always be the one to come sit on the couch and start talking and then hugging and kissing. I know where it is headed. I have kind of shut her off. The closest I could come to saying no was a night when she wanted to give me a BJ. I let her and it was amazing, of course. Then she said it was her turn and I got dressed and said, thanks, I've had enough. Later that night, she wanted to again and I said no again. When we're in a place that i can feel at least connected to you, if not loved, then we can talk about it. Thant was the middle of March.
Man, this sucks. I was taking a shower the other night and cleaning it and it went off in my hand. Loaded weapons are very dangerous!
I'm sure that will be censored if that's too much. Just a joke!
don't want to put a lol after that one....but i REALLY know what you mean...but luckily i just returned to work after stopping @ home to see W....she seduced me and at least i lasted longer than she did this time....
still only the 3rd time we have had monkey love in the past 6 months....oh yeah all 3 in the last week.
hang in there guys!
M-37 W-36 S-11, S-9, D-4 PA exposed 3/13/10 10/19/10 moving on... most up to date sit
I get nothing so now I'm giving nothing either. I am done initiating.
i remember him telling me one time late last year that the reason he had sex with me was because I 'threw myself at him'
talk about confidence killer..
LOL that's funny but I can understand.
Inasmuch as I want to be with him intimately, I will not throw myself at him. I won't lie and say that I don't need it, because the lord KNOWS I do, but I value myself and my self respect more. eff him.
M: 32 H: 34 S:5 D: 3 D: 1 Together 11 years Married 7 Bomb: PA/EA 8/13/09 (for 1 year on and off) ILYBINILWY: 08/09
"The end of suffering happens with the end of wanting." -Laura Munson