Still haven't heard from H since Tues when I called him. He has been good about calling me each day so I was starting to think something happened to him yet he never returnd my call or came to MC.
Spinning wheels and shtuff. Both of us, like someone said in the other thread.
And that's just it. Why hasn't he called me? I have spent the most part of the last 2 days confused & waking up at night and not slept well. Then he'll reappear and things will seem great again. It's always this f-cking back and forth & well we're supposed to be working on our M and then he doesn't call. I don't know if I should give in and call? WTH. This is all mentally exhausting. I wish we were okay and none of this ever happened.
I know I can't re-write our history but sure wish I could. Sometimes I feel I spend more time trying to repair our M and see what's wrong with it than actually enjoying it. Grrr. This on the heels of such a lovely weekend. Maybe I think too much? Or my expectations are too high of what a M should be.
