WAW Using God II

[pigskin]

Journaling:

W stopped by a couple of times yesterday running errands, just quick interaction between us.

Later attended a meeting at school and W was there, more businesslike interaction from me.

Was busy getting kids cleaned up and in bed in the evening, and before I went to bed I notice I got 2 texts from W: "Are you OK? You hardly said anything to me today."

Then the second 2 hours later (since I hadn't responded to the first text): "I guess that's a 'no'. I'll call you tomorrow to talk."

I just went to bed without replying, didn't care that she thought I ignored her texts.

Sent her a reply this morning, "I'm fine. How are you?"

I guess at my stage you have to amuse yourself with the interactions. Why would she even care about me not talking to her?

Yesterday I instituted a policy that whenever I find myself thinking about my W, our R, or the OM, I'm going to say a "Hail Mary". Said quite a few yesterday; makes me realize I still have work to do to get my detachment where I want it.