Moving on with my life #2

[Startingover2]

Ok, I don't have long here but wanted to clarify..I wasn't 'looking' at exh's stuff on fb. I was reading someones status and the following comments...his happened to be one of them. I wasn't seeking it out. Seeing it just made me sick. I am sure if you all were in the same situation you would feel the same way.

Again, I use this place to journal feelings and vent. IRL I really don't think about exh as much as you all think I do. Maybe still too much, but not 24/7.

I do the best I can at GALing. No money, no real help and no money to PAY a babysitter means I have to rely on family which is my kids and they are hardly home as they have thier own lives, school, and jobs and my 88 year old mother who has her own life. Yes, my d18 is watching baby for a few hours tomorrow night so I can go out with a couple of gf's and my mom is watching her for a few hours while I attend a memorial service on Sunday. Not to mention at every free moment I am trying to study as much as I can so I can someday try and earn a living.

I appreciate what you say...I really do and I get it. I journal stuff here and vent. Exh is not my whole life..baby is. I will admit that. I am number 2 right now. She needs stability and love. Not a mom that is too busy for her.