Things are looking up, two interviews next week for H, one means he would stay away all week, but when chatting he said he prefer the one that allowed him to come home, although tbh he is more likely to get the stay away one!
Went out for dinner last night and did manage to bring up the lack of house work in conversation and he honestly said he was struggling with his depression and had doubled up on tablets a couple of day, which I validated his honesty but still said it doesnt help me much as other wise I'll end up going in the same direction as him due to stress.. Mentioned a few other things finances which didnt start off positive but did get turned around as we chatted on.. but some of the emotional stuff he is clearly not ready to face up to any of that yet, either his or mine! Still some days havent a clue where this is going but did manage to voice that Im still not letting him in too much as I dont feel confident him getting a job will result in him leaving again, which he looked offended at but didnt protest, what does he expect me to think, he changed the perameters of trust in our relationship and no they will never go back to what they were..
Looking forward to our weekend, at least its on a more positive note and footing..
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W 47 H 47 M 24 T 30
Once lost but now found and happily married again!
