I changed my sig - we've been together 12 years and M for 8. Sorry, I thought I had answered you... I do not believe in divorce, it's a religion thing, it's a commitment thing, it's my belief system, I'm a fighter. I do not break promises. Period.
And no, I enjoy being alone. I am independent. I can overhaul an engine, I've been a road construction worker, landscaper, house painter, accountant. I have no fear of being alone for the rest of my life if need be. I like myself, my grandmother taught me that lesson. She said you are the only one you can count on, the only constant in your life, you have to be your own friend. No fears or worries here - I don't need him. I just want him.
I'll consider the rest of your post carefully before answering.