Today was tough for me. I felt sad and teary for most of the day. My H texted me 2x after the email to ask if I got his email. I didn't respond to him.
I feel a lot better after going to IC. Talking about everything really helps. IC believes my H is empty inside. She believes that after we talk thru everything...I will question my reasons for marrying a man like him. She provides good insight into everything.
I am going to stop wearing my decoy ring next week to work. I need to stop pretending. I think this will be a big step for me in accepting what is to come.
One plus in all of this..I get my maiden name back. My married name is awful. I know this will get easier with every passing day.
