"My dear, your HUSBAND is a FREAKIN DRAMA QUEEN and YOU are his BIGGEST FAN!!!"
HA! This is true. I guess it's the old bonds. I love him. But there's a part of me that still wants to "save" him & that's the bit I gotta lose pronto. I re-read your advice every day on my thread (and on other's), and I am working on this... truly I am.
I debriefed with BIL cos he just arrived in the country, we are very close, he's like my little bro, and we hadn't spoken since the whole debacle began - 7 months. He was very distressed and wanted to talk. I promise I didn't instigate it. I won't be going out of my way to ask BIL about H, and he has told me he will only talk about him if I want. And you know, I felt really supported by our convo and that has helped my morale for more GALing and BACKBURNING (love this term as applied to WAH!).
I don't think an afternoon of debriefing hasn't shifted me off course.
I know I do a lot of flip flopping on my thread & probably post too often especially when I am feeling bad, but I am keeping my resolve in my dealings with him.
Verbalizing here gives me the outlet for my grief and fears.
OK, so obviously I need to man-up too!
One step at a time, right?
I did not allow him into the apartment the other night & I was pretty cold about it. I said 3 words: "That's correct" (when he said "I guess I won't be coming in?") and "Goodnight".
Pls don't give up on me. Your advice is the most hardline, and I need it to keep me in line.
