He says things to get a rise out of me and oftentimes, succeeds. he just thinks that certain things are funny too and it's just cruel humor on his part.
I don't know who he is anymore or what happened to him.
I do know him though.. he has had family members and friends do him wrong in the past, yet I was ALWAYS the one who stuck by him no matter what. Now he has a relationship with these individuals and I see him making excuses for why the reason why his relationship with those people are mended is okay.. yet I'm being treated like an alien. I know he will come to a point where it'll hit him. I just don't know if I can wait that long.
I'm a young, good looking woman. I have a good head on my shoulders, look the same as I did when we first met, (if not better!) I work out and am toned and always take care of myself. It's like I'm hanging on an edge. part of me wants to tell him to eff off, the other part of me wants to hold on and never let go...I know what I NEED to do.. and that is detach and let him see what life would really be like without me.
he swears that he has already felt that and that he'll be fine.
he was overseas and living another life with OW.. but that's not the same. he doesn't get that. I didn't KNOW what he was doing. He still had me at home with the kids and he still had ME!
M: 32 H: 34 S:5 D: 3 D: 1 Together 11 years Married 7 Bomb: PA/EA 8/13/09 (for 1 year on and off) ILYBINILWY: 08/09
"The end of suffering happens with the end of wanting." -Laura Munson