It is almost always a work in progress. Most of us started the same way. Just try to do better tomorrow than today. You get stronger as your fear lessons and your fear lessons as you get stronger.

DO NOT backtrack or back down. You had weeks, if not months, to the process each time she calls your bluff and wins

Me 44 She 46
S13 D9
M18 T23
3 years DB'ing
Successfully busted