Yes June, I think that's part of it. I want to scream at him "how could you have made love to her, promised eternal love while still sleeping in our bed, hurt our kids so bad, broke the continuity of our common life, disrepected our home, etc etc and now you are back, and all of that was...? What? A break? A mistake? And what do I do with the non existing trust? The memories, the flashbacks..."

I will know I am over the biggest part of this, when I will catch myself dreaming of the future. I test myself at times. Things feel so fragile I cant.

More drama with his sister's sitch. Typical, clasic, MEAN WAW. The mean kind, FIB's kind, nusty MLC, a mess. H decided he will talk to her after we spoke. I started a phrase and he said "I know my oppinion may be important at this stage". He called and they will talk probably on Sat.

He says, he will go ahead and do something about his work after the world cup. The financial sitch here is pretty bad, we are one of the lucky families with 3 jobs and income that allows us to have what we wish. It's a tough call but he needs to decide. Eventually. I feel good about not pushing this as a prerequisite back in Oct-Nov although it was my intent.

I think I may use the VS thingies this weekend smile
K


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S11&D10
Bomb 5/2007-Sep 11/2007
Reconc.November 2009