how do i keep my hope alive?

[gr8 day 2B alive]

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part of me wants to move on with my life without my H. part of me wants to cling to him and to our M. why did he give up so easily? why doesn't he want to fight for us? can he not see what he will be losing? he left me, he left our life together...and i have to deal with picking up the pieces myself. i know i'm capable and things will eventually go on. i'm ready to let go of the M we had. i don't know if it's what i really want. how do you know when you're in such an emotional haze, what you really want and what is just panic/fear/avoidance??

We all have these thoughts.

You need to stop wondering why, how, could he do these things.

This will eat you up.

As for the separation, I don't think you should ask him again about M. He knows how you feel about it.
You say this is something he wants right?
Then you need to give it to him with a smile on her face.

My W said we should see a mediator to come up with a post nuptial agreement. At first I was angry b/c I thought my DBing was working and she thought differently. I remember saying to her "if you want a D then lets go up the the court house this week and get one!"

Maybe this was a turning point for me b/c I haven't received anything else from her about the post nup and it's been a month now.

You arguing with him about this will only make him want it more.

I haven't read your whole sitch but instead of asking him to work on M say something like this: I agree with you on this separation and I feel we both need time to work on ourselves b/c I don't want to go back to the way things were.

I may be saying the same thing to W very shortly.