Listen to Sandi!!!!!!! She knows of which she speaks.
We all have to do what we need to do in our own time. If I would have listened to Sandi and Puppy and others, maybe I would be in a better place now. Instead, I made more mistake and thought my sitch was different. Guess what, it's not.
I still make mistakes, but learn from them and try not to repeat them. You will have to do things that are not comfortable for yourself. Things aren't so great right now anyway, right.
This is the hardest thing you will ever do. Listen and learn, be brave and know you can do it!