Originally Posted By: StupidRomeo
CTH, thanks for checking in. It rings true when you say she's being nice because she's mentall moved on and I have to catch up to her. Trust me I want to but I don't know how. For a few mins I feel like I'll be moving on but then the next few mins I'm feeling like crap again as if she runs through my blood and I need her to survive. I know I don't. I've survived 2.5 years without her before and I've been ok for the most part since she last left but the D bomb really did me in!


I hear you here- so sorry I haven't been writing- I forgot you started a new thread and didn't set up email reminders for this one! My H is being nice too. I think they like that we're giving them what they're asking for, which makes me feel bad, but what other choice do we have? You have and CAN survive- even thrive- without her. Like FM says, each new bomb is a blow- it's going to be a rollercoaster for a little while. I just wish we all could enjoy the ups more.

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I'm actually surprised at my phatheticness because I did't think it'll affect me this much. I'm sure a lot of it is seeing the finality of things and part of it is all the extra legal crap that I'm uncomfortable with.


Ok, first of all "phatheticness" is not even a word wink. Sorry, trying to lift you up a bit. But it's not a word, so you can't be it. I think, no matter how much talk either way there's been, that paper/legal stuff has a big impact. If it didn't, you wouldn't be human. She may or may not still have any ambivalence about it, but all you can act and react to are her actions (or don't react, as the situation merits.), not what you think her thoughts and feelings, are, etc. I like your list too- try to stick to it, ok?

(((SR)))

When the men on the chessboard
Get up and tell you where to go;
And you've just had some kind of mushroom
And your mind is moving slow;
Go ask Alice...
I think she'll know.