When I got home last night, kids were all outside playing. They all ran up and gave me hugs. I can never get enough of those! Wanted me to stay and play. I told them I was going to change clothes and then be back out. Went in the house and W say hi, do you want to eat? I said sure, thanks. Some small talk, not much. I changed clothes and went back outside. Played with kids for a while and then started weed eating. I did that until dark.
When I came in, she had started showers. One of the twins wanted to practice guitar so we did that for a while. He is getting very good at it and seems to enjoy it. He needs to practice a little more but is doing great.
I helped put the kids in bed then went out in the shed to piddle. Came in the house and took a shower. W was watching TV. Stuck my head in the room and told her I was going to bed.
This morning was OK. A little more relaxed. She has a track meet all day and told me where the younger kids would be and where to pick them up. I told the boys good luck in the meet, have fun, try your best but I would be proud whether they won or not. I walked them down our lane and got them on the bus. When I got back to the house, W was in shower. I stuck my head in the bathroom and told her I was leaving. She said wait a minute, she was almost done. She came out, wrapped in a towel and talked for a few minutes, then I left.
Like I said, a little more relaxed this morning. My mind wanders sometimes if it's because she has made up her mind that it's over. I push the thought out as quickly as I can. I know not to mind read, but the thought pops in there. I will not let it control me. I have more time, I know.
We'll see what happens next and if I am strong enough to put eveyones advice into action. I know, there is no trying, only doing.
