Time for darkness.... (thread number 3)ears open

[james217]

My goodness James!! My brother!!! Please, please, PLEASE. re-read some of the things you have written.

I journal quite often. Either my postings on here or my notebook and I sometimes MAKE myself go back and read during those dark periods.

Go back and read what you have been through but as another person. snap yourself back to reality.

This woman didn't accidently give you an STD. She went and knew the consequences for humping unprotected and didn't give a rats a$$ about bringing it back home to you.

Trust me, I've been there. My H gave me trich (thank god it's curable and I'm 100% rid of it now) from that wh0re he was with who was sleeping around with other men at the same time. Did he mean to? NO, no one means to do it but he did take that risk and he put me at risk at the same time.

Stop allowing yourself to be trapped by this woman. She knows you have a good heart and she is taking advantage of that...

Detaching is hard for ALL of us. You looked at my threads. you know my pain is familiar to yours. Detaching is hard because it's the opposite of what feels right.. But what feels right isn't working James!

We are here for you. Please just listen, okay!

(((hugs))

well we found out who has it. SD8 father. She had bloodwork done alot as did I and it was never mentioned. I asked my doctor and he said it could have been dormant for a long time.

the doctor says she is pretty much a carrier of it with no symptoms so she's making this little list dating back 8 years and trying to contact the few others to get them tested.

She wouldn't be going through all of that if the one guy was negative and I was positive. Over the past year we have been pretty much inseperable. I was in school and she was always with me. She was on sick leave so when we werent at college we were at home together. we went every where together.

I guess that's why my detaching is extremely hard. my father often said that me and WAW did more together in 13/14 months than him and my mom have done probably over the past 5 to 10 years

but i'm dark and detaching. just reading my bible. waiting by the phone about this job to find out what the final results are since that was my final interview and preparing to see the cornea specialist tommorrow

still no contact from WAW with OM's at all. she's been transparent about her phone as well and doesn't mind me checking the call history. she has no other phone.