Next steps

[flowmom]

Congratulations on the half marathon! You're amazing

I hear you on wanting forgiveness/closure. It's a need I have too and I will probably pressure H into C with me at some point just to have the opportunity to do that (using coparenting as an excuse) even if there's no hope for reconciliation.

OTOH, what about doing The Work on "I need H's forgiveness" or "I need to understand what happened".

Good for you on tossing his stuff out. The gall of his calling into question your honour . I'm glad you're getting some satisfaction out of seeing his reaction when he's not in control of everything and calling all the shots. Every step that you take to take care of yourself is very symbolic.