I realize how important it is to detach. It's just very difficult.
Yep - it is difficult but can be done. It just takes time. You may slip up from time to time but don't beat yourself up about it. Remember, all you are doing is loving from a distance.
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I do know that I am at a place right now where even if she had a complete change of heart and begged me to come back tomorrow, I couldn't. Not right away.
That's sound fine but just keep working on your issues. Really look at the things that you need to change and just keep working at it. Change takes time.
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Too much pain and damage has been done.
That is why you take this time to HEAL. You need to heal your wounds and fix yourself before you can really embark on the journey of reconciliation.
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but I hate the finality sound of D.
Everyone does buddy - but why are you so affraid? Have you explored this? Does a D mean that it is over - I think not. So try and face the fear and find out the true reason that you have this fear.
God Bless, Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
