New here but have been a voyeur

[Truegritter]

It is not worse than death. But it is like death. You go through the same stages. Read lostforwords thread I gave you earlier.

I think you need to go completely dark for now and don't backslide. We are talking about YOUR health here.

Remember this: THERE ARE NO VICTIMS ONLY VOLUNTEERS

You are in control here. You can't run away from this pain believe me so take your time going through and stay in IC or start IC.

Stay here and start a new thread under D if you want. There is so much wisdom here if you listen. You WILL listen eventually. When you've have enough pain...

...Oh but don't we have a unbelievable capacity to tolerate pain.