No kidding Grit. Yesterday was awful. Just emotionally draining- ALL DAY LONG.
I am not sure what would of happened if my friend wasn't here. He probably would have yelled more. Carried on for longer I suppose. He thought I was going to ruin his stuff..I told him that I would spend this weekend boxing up his stuff for him so that he could pick it up next week. He just seemed so out of his mind.
I know he is in a lonely place and it breaks my heart. His family has tried to reach out to him and provide guidance and support. My MIL always told him that she would support his decision for D (even though she hates that is the route we are taking)...but he just continues to treat everyone with such hostility.
I don't think my H was serious about moving back here..I think he was just threatening me with that. I have to do something here. I don't think there is a chance of reconciliation here..and I definitely do not want one with his behavior. I am being urged to contact my L and just file...by friends and family. Enough is enough I think. I know that contacting a lawyer is going to make him angry and he is going to make things more difficult for me. But I cannot go thru another day like yesterday..and I have a feeling that this is going to be the norm going forward.
Grit- I don't think he is coming back. He has lost his mind...and before I lose mine..I need to start the moving on process. I am going to talk to the mortgage guy today to see what I need to do for my refinance. All of this is so scary. I have such a heaviness in my chest. He looked at me with such anger last night...that angry look that he has shown way too many times in the past year. He doesn't even realize how he is acting. I am torn between wanting to punch him in his face..and holding him in my arms.
My MIL says she keeps envisioning her son like a homeless, schizophrenic (sp) picking thru garbage. That is how crazy his behavior is.
Today is going to be a no H day. I am not going to answer emails or phone calls..and hopefully he will not show up here again. I am having the locks changed so that he just cannot come in. I went NC from Saturday until Tuesday..until the D talk.
Is D worse than death? This whole process keeps getting harder and harder.
