The journey begins

[ClingingToHope]

I'm considering doing something stupid and I want you guys to talk me out of it.

I have one mediation session left and really there's not much left to decide since we're having a D settlement conference in two weeks.

Yesterday went so well that I want to take a chance next week. If we're not discussing anything really heavy I want to say something like,

"Last week you said we're always going to broke. We don't have to be. We could do the settlement conference, get everything ready to go and then hold off and finish the counseling we started last February. STBXW, I've learned so much on how I pushed us to this point, if there's no one else in your life, can't we finish exploring if there's anyway to salvage this M?"

I've always wanted to make one more try, open myself up. I know the likelihood is that I'll get rejected and that will knock me back quite a bit, but shouldn't I at least try?

Between now and the end of the D, next Wednesday and the settlement conference are the only times we'll really be together.

The second alternative is to make a pitch at the settlement conference after she sees what it's going to cost. I could add in a line about how I don't want her money, I just want to be a family again.

Third alternative is to just keep my mouth shut and get the best deal possible.