Time for darkness.... (thread number 3)ears open

[Serenity13]

im new to this dbing stuff. I'm really trying but it's not easy. Detaching is very very hard for me. I'm really really trying to detach.

It is very hard and you have others here telling you how to do it, you aren't listening.

I can recall almost dying last year. This woman was right by my side. I can recall when I first found out about my vision issues she was there. When we lost everything she was there. She was more than my wife. She was truly my best friend.

That isn't the same woman you are dealing with right now

She did not purposely give me the std.

What is wrong with that sentence?

I gurantee if I went to ech and every last one of the threads postedon here every single person on here went through the phase I'm going through right now.

Yes however after being here since 06, you should have passed that phase by now

It's not in my nature to be mean or cruel. I read my bible and it doesn't teach me to do that or to turn my back or people or to say crap like infalte your nuts.

It teaches me I should be willing to lay down my life for a friend. To love uncondtionally because love can conquer all.

It teaches me to walk in forgiveness. Anyone who needs my help? I'll try to do so.

I appreciate all of this. I believe that love conquers all. I believe that by being kind and trying to walk like Jesus did on this earth can help others. I'm not perfect at it but i'm going to try.

I read the same Bible - It also says He helps those that helps themselves. Nowhere in there does it say be a doormat for your spouse...Even Jesus knew when to 180 and walk away.

Im dark but if she needs me for whatever reason I'll try to help. I believing blessings come from helping others.

Blessings come from Him...A feeling of peace and joy comes from helping others

Serenity i'm sorry about your divorce. I think you are going through that. At least from what I read through when I looked over your sitch.

Thank you but please don't be...I am thrilled to have a new chance because of Him...I am worth more then this...He has shown me that.

A long time ago I had a talk with my sister who is about 8 years older than me. She asked me how I could love and forgive people so easily. She asked me how I could be that way. I said I don't know. She said your spirit and heart are so kind to people. Sometimes you make mistakes and sin but your heart is always pure and in the right place.

Your sister sounds very nice...However last time I checked - Everyone sins each and every day

Well I haven't changed that much over the years. I love everyone i care about uncondtionally. We all sin and fall short. but God forgives us when we ask. he never goes dark on us or turns his back on us . For that I am thankful and even when people wrong me I can't do it.

Ill see what the darkness does but I prefer to walk in the light. I'm far from perfect.

but ill be ok. I hope everyone has a nice night tonight

No one loves as unconditionally as He does...NO ONE...Yes He does forgive when we ask...Yes He loves no matter what...Yes He is the light however you aren't doing what you are doing for Him...

You are doing it for you...

Did you ever stop to think that the enemy is in your midst? God will take care of it if that is what you believe, however how is He supposed to work for you when you won't get out of His way?

Where is your faith in Him?

Take it to the foot of the Cross and leave it there.

(((Hugs)))