Time for darkness.... (thread number 3)ears open

[james217]

James ~

I don't even know where to begin...I have seen you making new threads...Asking the same questions over and over again...

"Insanity - Doing the same thing over and over and
expecting different results."

You stress me out with all the questions...The answers are in all of your threads...

You have Rob here...You have Gucci here...You have Puppy here - You don't need any one else...

Stop typing...Stop talking...For God's sake stop thinking and start reading...Start listening...And start applying the amazing knowledge being shared with you...

Go into your drawer or you glove box or your tool box and find your balls...Man Up."

Stop having sex with the woman - She gave you an STD...Wrap your mind around that for a little bit...

Let her have her "You ruined my life" kick - We have all been there - Know what? It is crap and you damn well know it...

You want someone here to hold your hand and say "Now now James...Do it this way" or " Yes James you are doing wonderful"?

I won't be that person...

Your head is so far up her butt it is beyond sad...

There are people here who could truly use the help you are getting and they may be missing out because you won't listen.

im new to this dbing stuff. I'm really trying but it's not easy. Detaching is very very hard for me. I'm really really trying to detach.

I can recall almost dying last year. This woman was right by my side. I can recall when I first found out about my vision issues she was there. When we lost everything she was there. She was more than my wife. She was truly my best friend.

She did not purposely give me the std. She did not know she had it. She's the only one I could have gotten it from though and the guy she had a P.A with does not have it either.

She states she ruined my life not the other way around. etc etc.

I gurantee if I went to ech and every last one of the threads postedon here every single person on here went through the phase I'm going through right now.

It's not in my nature to be mean or cruel. I read my bible and it doesn't teach me to do that or to turn my back or people or to say crap like infalte your nuts.

It teaches me I should be willing to lay down my life for a friend. To love uncondtionally because love can conquer all.

It teaches me to walk in forgiveness. Anyone who needs my help? I'll try to do so.

I appreciate all of this. I believe that love conquers all. I believe that by being kind and trying to walk like Jesus did on this earth can help others. I'm not perfect at it but i'm going to try.

Im dark but if she needs me for whatever reason I'll try to help. I believing blessings come from helping others.

Serenity i'm sorry about your divorce. I think you are going through that. At least from what I read through when I looked over your sitch.

A long time ago I had a talk with my sister who is about 8 years older than me. She asked me how I could love and forgive people so easily. She asked me how I could be that way. I said I don't know. She said your spirit and heart are so kind to people. Sometimes you make mistakes and sin but your heart is always pure and in the right place.

Well I haven't changed that much over the years. I love everyone i care about uncondtionally. We all sin and fall short. but God forgives us when we ask. he never goes dark on us or turns his back on us . For that I am thankful and even when people wrong me I can't do it.

Ill see what the darkness does but I prefer to walk in the light. I'm far from perfect.

but ill be ok. I hope everyone has a nice night tonight