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[awest1217]

I did ask H why he wanted to take me out Saturday. He said it was becuase it was my birthday and I did stuff for him on his birthday. I told him that I only wanted to do something if he really wants to. I don't want an obligation dinner. I want to be celebrated. I said if he didn't want to do something for me that I was ok with it. If he wants to really celebrate the day of my birth then I am ok with that too, but don't do it out of obligation. He never told me one way or another if he was going to still make plans so I am planning on nothing, but I hate pity. I feel that way every time I am invited to the in-laws. They invite me because I have S, and when it is a gift event like Christmas, last year mother's day, easter, etc. I get something even more horrible than usual, and it usually feels very rushed (MIL is a horrible gift giver...H will agree. He got underwear and undershirts for easter this year). I just want to feel loved and I don't need H to feel that way. I feel that way every day when S smiles at me or I hang with my fam and friends.