Huband is having an emotional affair

[ALJ]

You are right Allen and 4luv. I just wanted to send that e-mail so that I could give H a piece of my mind in the process. I somehow thought that the e-mail would wake H up and make him think about what he is doing to us. However, it is going to take more than that for H to come to his senses.

I am hurting and missing him but not his actions right now. Sometimes, I even feel like I hate him. Right now, I cannot see myself with someone else and even if it did not work out with H, it would take me a long time to heal from the devastation of a walkaway H and infidelity, not to mention the trust issues that I now have.

I do have my own account along with our joint account at our bank but I might close it when I get a job because H can see what I have in it if he goes online to look at the joint account. 4Luv, thanks for the references.