Flushing the toxins from my life

[CountingCrows]

Wow...been a while. I'm doing pretty decent. Definitely in a different place than I've been before. Waiting on lawyer to get draft of final papers to me this week. Been staying very busy with work, s8 and friends. Overall, my self-confidence has improved. Partially because I'm back on my feet with a full time job, but also because I'm actually pulling off the single-dad thing without much more effort than before STBXW left. Thankfully, I've got some great family/friends who have been extra supportive during this whole ordeal.

I still miss her. Terribly. I can't dwell on it or I'll become a blubbering idiot. I've learned to control my (external) emotions better. I only "allow" myself to fall apart when I say it's time. Odd to consider that progress...but for me, it is. It's getting better as time goes on, though. I'm beginning to accept that our relationship will forever be different than before.

We're both having to cope with our feelings about each other going on with our lives, even though neither of us is looking to jump into any new relationships anytime soon.