is my WAH in an MLC (need some experts!)?

[pandora]

so today has been ok too emotionally. H brother asked us how we were doing today. we had told him this weekend...now he's in the hospital after complications with a heart procedure. it was sad when H bro asked us if his situation had changed anything. H said no, and i know it was heartbreaking for bro. I ached for him but understood how long it has taken me to even start comprehending this so can't imagine what our families will go through. we're of south asian background so divorce is SO uncommon...they really just won't get it either. i spent the last year worrying about them too and just recently have realized that there is nothing i can do for them. the sitch sucks and well, that's it.

btw, was reading the article about the Anderson book. i'll tell you that i've actually done the "separation therapy" with my IC. as part of my grieving after our son's death, i dealt with a lot of past issues including mostly abandonment issues as a child. i did this specific exercise using EMDR and it was fascinating...and really worked! basically the way she describes it in the article is how it feels...it's so healing. the therapy then, along with going to a holistic practitioner were so helpful for me to move past things, grow and gain new perspective.

seriously though, who knew, that a year later, i would be dealing with this too. that's why i'm especially tired. i guess i didn't learn the lesson clearly enough...life seriously is out of our control.

so focus on myself...do you all have any suggestions...more on an emotional level? i'm trying really hard with the thought stopping, trying to detach, but i don't want it to last a few days and then i plummet again.