I will continue to strive for that "same tone and demeanor." I know that it will help the entire sitch and my own sanity. The roller coaster of emotions, highs and lows can be so overwhelming. As I am always reminded, I can't control her, only myself.
I am much calmer today compared to yesterday. I think I am prepared for these things and I disappoint myself when I realize that I'm not.
Thanks again to all for helping calm me down. I'm sure it will be the last time that I need help recouperating like that. Yeah, right! I do try to learn from my mistakes. This can all be so confusing at times. I don't want anyone to think that I am ignoring their advice or that I'm afraid to do the things that are suggested. (OK-I am still afraid to do some things, but am getting better and stronger!)
I can feel in my heart that the hardest is yet to come. I can only hope that the changes in myself and help from God, family and friends will give me the strength to do what I need to do in the way I need to do it.
BTW, friends include all of you here. It does feel that way even though most of us will never meet. I can only imagine where I would be right now if I hadn't found this place. I know I have to do the heavy lifting myself, but the guidance from people who have been there before or are going through it themselves is priceless.
