i am talking to my IC about all of this and she actually congratulated me on my mental/emotional progression. i don't feel like i'm masking anything. i'm still in pain, i still cry, i still feel moments of anger and anguish...but i'm also letting go of the marriage that i did have. and i'm ok with that. i'm ok with where i am now. i love my H and i really truly believe in the commitment of marriage - but all i have control over is is myself and my own actions and responses, so if this is the direction he wants to go, i'll go.
Me30 H29 M2.5 T5 H moved out 1/23/2010 H wants signed agreement 3/30/2010 ...feeling hopeless