I wouldn't say she has drawn a hard line in the sand. She admits to feeling badly that she has no sex drive and she also admits that I would have every justification to leave her. She has indicated that she is contemplating tryng HRT to see if this helps, but she is very bitter that she is the one who has to compromise if we are to have a sex life. She really feels that HRT causes more harm than anything else. In addition, even if she had any kind of desire for a sex life, she now finds it very uncomfortable, although HRT may help.
It is interesting that she has no interest in any other form of intimate contact - I have pressed on this issue but she is not at all interested. I don't really understand why.
In any event, I am really getting turned off the idea of having sex with someone who obviously has no interest - particulary if it would only be out of some pathetic sense of duty.
With respect to councelling, she has indicated she is not interested - believing that councelling will not increase her drive. She says she loves me and we have an otherwise acceptable relationship - but she just doesn't have a sex drive and doesn't believe it is right to force her to partake. I may consider councelling on my own, but this would only help me cope with my depressing situation.
I have seriously contemplated leaving. The kids are at home but are attending college for another few years at least. Do I want to leave - not really, but I don't know if I have the ability to live like this for a long period of time.
I am constantly living in the hope that if I stick it out long enough, there will be some change in my situation. Seems like very wishful thinking at this time. I am trying harder at occuping myself with activities to keep me busy so that I don't dwell on my situation, but I am fighting a loosing battle in this regard. I feel that I should not give up hope, however, and that some answer will arise in due course.
