As I was so kindly told, last night I said and did nothing. She was making supper for the kids and asked if I wanted to eat. I said no thank, I need to finish cutting the grass and have some other things to do outside. I went and told the kids hi and then went outside. After a while, she came out and held up swings and other things so I could mow under them. She said S4 wanted a ride on tractor and put him on my lap. I shut the mower off and drove him around the property for a while. He loves a tractor ride!
Finished that and did some other things, went in, told the kids I wouldn't be home when they went to bed and gave them all a kiss good-night. She asked where I was going and I told her my Dad needed some help with some things at his house and I would be home later.
I got home @10:30 and took a shower and she was asleep on the couch. I didn't wake her. I was exhausted from no sleep the night before and fell asleep instantly.
When I woke up this morning, she was in bed also. Got the kids ready and off to school. I got ready and told her good-bye and left.
It felt good to not worry about egg shells. I know now she doesn't care if she pisses me off or hurts my feelings. I thought before, maybe she just didn't realize it. How stupid.
Still trying and hoping and learning. I learned a lot in the last two or three days.
Thanks for the help. I know it's not over yet, I have a ways to go. I will be OK no matter what, even if I haven't totally convinced myself of that yet. Getting there.
