Just read Brit's post. Some things sound just like my H. Telling me that it was never meant to be..was never attracted to me..we couldn't talk about anything. It is all so hurtful. 10 years!!!..and the relationship has been downgraded to sh*t. The more he says things like this..the more I want to defend our M..but I know he isn't ready to hear anything like that.
I think what triggered the divorce talk was that my cousin called my H last night. My cousin thought he passed my H driving and thought my H waved. My cousin didn't wave back but then thought about it after..was that Lola's H? He called my H and they talked. My H called me angry..saying that my cousin knew what was going on. My H has been living in a bubble- he doesn't think anybody knows what has been happening even though he hasn't been to a family event in months. My H said- well if that cousin knows..all the cousins know. My H would rather run from the pain then deal with it.
I don't think I am going to have a success story like Brit's. I am hopeful that I will have success..just not with my H. We don't have children and my H is too resentful and prideful to admit he made a mistake. It is easier for him to blame the M and walk away..the M made him do it. He isn't fooling anyone but himself but he feels this is necessary.
I didn't fight the D talk last night. I really don't feel like I have much to fight for right now. I am still not convinced H has ended contact with OW. He wants me to start the house stuff but wanted to hold off on the D paperwork..said the house stuff should come first. I am just tired.
